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Go ahead

put a “<3” and i’ll tell you about someone i care about, without any names.

put a “</3” and i’ll tell you something that broke me.

put a “>:” and i’ll tell you something i dislike about myself.

put a “<:” and i’ll tell you something i like about myself.

Put a “>:c” and i’ll tell you something that pissed me off.

Put a “#” and i’ll tell you the last thing i lied about.

Put a “*” and i’ll tell you a secret

so it’s been two years, eight months, and fourteen days since i’ve been shot.

and sadly, i can still recount the exact moments, the exact time, everything about it.

this is why i hate pregnancy brain: it cause me to dwell on things that are in the past, things i’ve generally overcome, yet i’m sitting here, crying, waiting pathetically for this moment to pass. yes, i’ve wanted to kill myself, specifically in those moments of struggling with battling the depression, the ptsd, everything involved in it… but i’m past it.

so why am i sitting here still crying, watching america’s next top model, desperate wanting this moment to pass?

jesus christ i need to go back to work…

Never Have I Ever…

Let’s play “Never Have I Ever”. Cross out all of the things that you have done. You might just see that there are people just like you out there.

Sexual

  • Never have I ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
  • Never have I ever kissed a girl.
  • Never have I ever kissed a boy.
  • Never have I ever received/given a blowjob, hand job, eating out.
  • Never have I ever had sex.
  • Never have I ever fallen in love.
  • Never have I ever cheated on someone.
  • Never have I ever been cheated on.
  • Never have I ever sexted.

Life

  • Never have I ever gotten into a fight.
  • Never have I ever done something illegal.
  • Never have I ever gotten wasted.
  • Never have I ever used an illegal drug.
  • Never have I ever snuck out.
  • Never have I ever stolen something.
  • Never have I ever vandalized something.
  • Never have I ever lost a family member due to death.
  • Never have I ever been in a life or death situation.
  • Never have I ever been arrested.
  • Never have I ever been fired from a job.

Emotions

  • Never have I ever wanted to kill someone because in the moment I hated them that much.
  • Never have I ever been kept up at night due to guilt.
  • Never have I ever laughed so hard I cried.
  • Never have I ever been abused physically.
  • Never have I ever cried myself to sleep.
  • Never have I ever wished that I was someone else.
  • Never have I ever wanted to kill myself.
  • Never have I ever tried to kill myself.
  • Never have I ever felt like an outcast.
  • Never have I ever wanted to do something just so I would fit in.

Friendships

  • Never have I ever ruined my friendship with someone.
  • Never have I ever had a friend leave me for other people.
  • Never have I ever been kicked out of a friend group.
  • Never have I ever wished that I had different friends.
  • Never have I ever wanted to fuck one of my friends.
  • Never have I ever wished that I could be more than friends with someone.
  • Never have I ever wished I was friends with the popular people.
  • Never have I ever been friendless.

School

  • Never have I ever failed a test.
  • Never have I ever cut class.
  • Never have I ever had to eat alone.
  • Never have I ever failed a course.
  • Never have I ever been suspended.
  • Never have I ever received detention.
  • Never have I ever passed notes/texted in class.
  • Never have I ever made out with someone in school.
  • Never have I ever dropped out of school.

cactusfunk:

Sarah Ann Miller

allthingseurope:

Oia, Santorini, Greece (by Pat L.314)

allthingseurope:

Oia, Santorini, Greece (by Pat L.314)

thankyoulawenforcement:

Yes.
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